Back to life in the UK
Today I am feeling my transition back to life in the UK is not going well. I want to hold on living life at my own leisurely pace and doing things in the order I feel like doing them – as I have been doing while I was a way in Spain. So I am finding all daily routines a demand. This is a really unrealistic point of view and one that I will have to adapt. For example, I am due for a dental appointment this week – whether I ‘feel like’ going at this specific time or not.
I am smoking a lot – 20+ a day. I have picked this up in Spain too, where everyone happily smokes everywhere at any time. I suppose being out of doors for much of the time and with windows always open the smoke is not particularly noticeable. However in our house it is; it makes the room smell and the ashtrays are foul. I only recently started smoking a few cigarettes in August, around the time I was advised that I should undergo the treatment. Stress. I was trying to take on board the implications of the treatment and face such issues as I might not be able to work much in the coming year if I am ill with side-effects from the drugs. As I am self-employed, it was apparent that we may not have much income if I can’t work much. So I am resolving to cut down the number of cigarettes and work towards stopping. Been wondering what the NHS Smoking Helpline might have to offer – as I am now becoming an active NHS patient/consumer!
On top of all this the weather is gloomy, cold and damp – it looks like it will stay this way all day.