Living Without HepC

Yesterday I felt ‘wrong’ when I woke up and this continued through most of the day. Just a feeling of not being able to get anything together or wake up properly or feel positively about any of it. I couldn’t say there was anything which set this off. I did however feel like moaning about any slight discomfort - for example, the pain from the inflamed nerve behind my ear is still driving me mad.

I am beginning to become aware of a pattern that each week after my interferon injection I seem to have one day where everything seems ‘wrong’ to me - not a good day for no apparent reason.

Over the past few weeks it has become apparent that I don’t suffer a weekly ’bout of flu’ following each injection. Before treatment I had expected this but I feel very fortunate not to have to go through it. Over the weeks, I think I have found and maintained an equilibrium. I am aware of, and can sometimes physically feel, the strong pharmaceuticals in my system and I feel the side-effects, but I don’t feel overwhelmed with these. All the things done by Carol to support my healing help me remain in touch with that equilibrium. I am referring to the liver-friendly diet, the Reiki, the aromatherapy and the all round supportive care she gives me.

I am not ‘fighting’ the pharmaceuticals - I think I would have done two years ago. I want the pharmaceuticals to work - I want the virus gone! I expect and accept there will be side-effects. I try to work with these and find ways to cope with whatever limitation presents itself. I suppose the ‘off’ day I had yesterday becomes part of the side-effects and I need to plan as best I can and deal with things as they come.

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